When I cook, I use all my senses… which is pretty normal, I suppose, but in my case if I don’t get the smell, taste or look right, my family won’t be happy (on a large scale). This recipe is a case in point, and I’ll explain why as I go along… It’s named for…
I'm nearly 20 weeks pregnant at the moment and nothing feels like it's happening the way it should. It's not as if I haven't been here before - after all I have NOS, PT and PW - but with them, the pregnancies progressed in the same way that the books tell me they should. I'm…
On the outside looking in, Walking through life on your own, No matter how large a group you’re with, You never have a friend. Watching everyone having fun, Making plans. Someone comes along. A tiny light of hope in your mind, You open up your heart to them, Show them who you are. They seem…
I have this absurd idea of what a family is supposed to be like. It's an amalgamation of all the things that I've absorbed from TV, Movies, books as I grew up. That's how ASD kids learn a lot of the time, you see; it means that we tend to have odd notions of how…
I love this – it’s a perfect allegorical explanation for melting down and burning out.
My Executive is not functioning
Their suit is creased,
They cannot find their papers
And their briefcase
Is full of ash.
The ash is from my burnout
And it spills all over the office
In great clouds,
In a fine dust
That will take some time
To clean up.
In the meantime
My constant hand flapping
Is spreading the ash still further
And it reflects the light
Coming in from the windows
And makes stimmy patterns
In the air.
When the ash settles on the desk
I like to run my fingers through it
And make circles in it
And then wash my hands
Because it feels a bit weird
On my skin.
Sand is nicer to play with.
My Words keep going AWOL
But they never leave a forwarding address
They just disappear.
I think they go off for a holiday
Or perhaps they’re just down…
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This list isn’t exhaustive, but it helped me to know who I am – I am an Aspie / ASD person. I’m posting this because I think it would help more people to know about it.
Disclaimer: This is my opinion and based on my experience after 12 years of researching about autism and being officially diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome. It is not meant to replace the DSM-V Autism Spectrum Disorder definition nor is this list meant to serve as an official diagnostic tool. Hundreds of women have used this list in conjunction with the DSM-IV or DSM-V and a professional mental health professional’s guidance. It is also based on 4.5 years of communicating almost daily with those that are diagnosed with autism and some that believe themselves to be on the spectrum. It is not all inclusive. Some will fit into categories and not be autistic/Asperian. This is meant as a springboard for discussion and more awareness into the female experience with autism.
* Highly intelligent does not relate to IQ levels. Often Aspies are dyslexic and have dysgraphia and other learning disabilities but can be highly intelligent about particular subject…
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A whole year has passed – doesn’t time fly when you’re preoccupied…
Yesterday, the following status appeared in my facebook memories from one year ago:
Did all that just happen? Now to try and remember what I was doing 3 weeks ago. And to consider what to do with the new information concerning how my head reacts to stuff.
At that point I didn’t mention on my facebook wall that it had been suggested by several people that I might be autistic. I just vaguely alluded to “new information” about “my head”. As far as I was concerned, the notion of me being autistic seemed extremely strange, extremely unnerving, and, as far as I knew at that point, extremely “not me”!!!
Oh, how I laugh at that last bit now!!!!!
I certainly wasn’t going to start chattering on about it on facebook at that time, and, as far as I can remember, I was still really regarding the whole “me being autistic”…
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I think I am teetering on the edge of Burnout... and constantly trying to pull myself back from the edge of it. The last time I burned out, I lost my memory of that time for over 6 months and it took me 2 years to come back from it. This time I am afraid…
This is both interesting and hopeful…
Being self diagnosed myself, I’m glad that more research is being done into Female ASD – perhaps this way, more help can be made available for every child with a diagnosis and for more adults.
"There is no such thing as Normal." I keep getting told. "Every one is different and unique." That's not the "Normal" that I'm talking about. Everyone in the world, no matter where they are, has a certain level of "Normal" that they like their life to be like. It's different for each person - as…