Warning, Rant ahead – KIDS!

Don't get me wrong, I love my family and their unique ways of looking at the world, their excitement about their passions and their joy in the smallest of details. This is one of the good things about being an ASD family. However, when you are ASD yourself, you often find that those things irritate…

Some VERY important information…

Hi. This is only going to be a short post from me because I want you to go read someone else' post. It's a really important post that needs to be read by as many people as possible - doesn't matter if you are the one with ASD or a parent or carer or relative…

Self doubt and paranoia…

I am trying very hard not to scream. I just had a convo with the Health Visitor - PW had been referred for ASD assessment by the previous HV through the GP and it had been turned down, new HV doesn't know why. So new HV contacted the Nursery Teacher to get the school to…

Stepping out of the comfort zone.

A.M. Tomorrow is the DWP Tribunal and I’m having a serious problem staying calm. From the outside I probably look like I’m fine, but my stomach is shivering and I’m having trouble breathing properly. I know what it is – I’m on the edge of an anxiety attack, but I can’t let myself go and…

Trying to Help Others Understand Anxiety

Anxiety is a big part of my life – I’ve never been able to explain how my anxiety affects my life… now I can.

I’m lucky, I have more starts at 0 than someone with a more severe anxiety problem. However, add some of my triggers and I jump from 0 to 4 without passing through the previous levels – there is no build up. Some days I wake up already on a 2 or 3 and that jump can take me to a 5 or 6.

I have rare days where I’m a 7 or 8 after the jump, but I’ve not yet experienced 9 or above… yet.

Unlovable

Whenever I start to explain that part of my mental illness diagnosis includes severe anxiety, I always receive confused looks.  They are usually followed by judgmental comments about how “everyone has problems and stress in their lives”, telling me that I need to “learn to cope and work through it all”.  I get told that I “shouldn’t let every little thing get to me” and that I’d be so much happier if I “stopped stressing over everything and just mellowed out”.

I have others that have gone so far as to make accusations about whether my anxiety is even real or just in my head.  They’ll question how I could claim I’m “too anxious” to go somewhere to fill out paperwork yet am “perfectly comfortable attending things like farmer’s markets or street fairs”.  I’ve tried to explain that it isn’t the same thing.  I don’t have social anxiety.  People and…

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A New Arrival…

Surprise Bump lived up to his name... He was due on 30th January (aka today!) but decided in his impatience to be out and about in the world, that he'd come early. I'd already decided (along with the consultant and the midwife) that an induction on the due date would be happening. The idea behind…

An Exhausting Weekend

It was Bonfire Night on Sunday. Normally we're excited by fireworks, but this weekend it felt like we were under siege. There have been sporadic fireworks going off since Diwali started on the 15th October, but they were few and far between and kind of fun. TOH isn't bothered by them much and the older…

Meltdown Feelings…

It started yesterday, with my temper flaring for no reason. It continued with a severe depressive episode that only just let up by my bedtime. It continued this morning with temper flares, sarcasm, refined carbs stuffing... My skin is crawling and I have to scratch it to make feel better. My head is pounding, My…

Social Media

Social Media; what’s it for? Talking to your friends? Arguing with your enemies? Persuading other people that your view is right? Causing pain to those you hate? Surely it could be for so much more? Playground semantics rule the sites, Bullying so much more subtle, Gas lighting and manipulation common, Cliques form and break up,…