Self doubt and paranoia…

I am trying very hard not to scream. I just had a convo with the Health Visitor - PW had been referred for ASD assessment by the previous HV through the GP and it had been turned down, new HV doesn't know why. So new HV contacted the Nursery Teacher to get the school to…

Stepping out of the comfort zone.

A.M. Tomorrow is the DWP Tribunal and I’m having a serious problem staying calm. From the outside I probably look like I’m fine, but my stomach is shivering and I’m having trouble breathing properly. I know what it is – I’m on the edge of an anxiety attack, but I can’t let myself go and…

Autistic Motherhood

I read the open letter to Kibo on Autistic Motherhood today... and added my request to be added to the signees. I also read the response post... As a writer myself, I understand that creative expression can take many forms and that often, we writers may deliberately portray things negatively in order to provoke a…

A New Arrival…

Surprise Bump lived up to his name... He was due on 30th January (aka today!) but decided in his impatience to be out and about in the world, that he'd come early. I'd already decided (along with the consultant and the midwife) that an induction on the due date would be happening. The idea behind…

Staying Mum…

I'm nearly 20 weeks pregnant at the moment and nothing feels like it's happening the way it should. It's not as if I haven't been here before - after all I have NOS, PT and PW - but with them, the pregnancies progressed in the same way that the books tell me they should. I'm…

You Three, Not Me.

On the outside looking in, Walking through life on your own, No matter how large a group you’re with, You never have a friend. Watching everyone having fun, Making plans. Someone comes along. A tiny light of hope in your mind, You open up your heart to them, Show them who you are. They seem…

Being a Mother

I have this absurd idea of what a family is supposed to be like. It's an amalgamation of all the things that I've absorbed from TV, Movies, books as I grew up.  That's how ASD kids learn a lot of the time, you see; it means that we tend to have odd notions of how…