Warning, Rant ahead – KIDS!

Don't get me wrong, I love my family and their unique ways of looking at the world, their excitement about their passions and their joy in the smallest of details. This is one of the good things about being an ASD family. However, when you are ASD yourself, you often find that those things irritate…

Some VERY important information…

Hi. This is only going to be a short post from me because I want you to go read someone else' post. It's a really important post that needs to be read by as many people as possible - doesn't matter if you are the one with ASD or a parent or carer or relative…

Self doubt and paranoia…

I am trying very hard not to scream. I just had a convo with the Health Visitor - PW had been referred for ASD assessment by the previous HV through the GP and it had been turned down, new HV doesn't know why. So new HV contacted the Nursery Teacher to get the school to…

Stepping out of the comfort zone.

A.M. Tomorrow is the DWP Tribunal and I’m having a serious problem staying calm. From the outside I probably look like I’m fine, but my stomach is shivering and I’m having trouble breathing properly. I know what it is – I’m on the edge of an anxiety attack, but I can’t let myself go and…

Autistic Motherhood

I read the open letter to Kibo on Autistic Motherhood today... and added my request to be added to the signees. I also read the response post... As a writer myself, I understand that creative expression can take many forms and that often, we writers may deliberately portray things negatively in order to provoke a…

An Exhausting Weekend

It was Bonfire Night on Sunday. Normally we're excited by fireworks, but this weekend it felt like we were under siege. There have been sporadic fireworks going off since Diwali started on the 15th October, but they were few and far between and kind of fun. TOH isn't bothered by them much and the older…

Meltdown Feelings…

It started yesterday, with my temper flaring for no reason. It continued with a severe depressive episode that only just let up by my bedtime. It continued this morning with temper flares, sarcasm, refined carbs stuffing... My skin is crawling and I have to scratch it to make feel better. My head is pounding, My…

Social Media

Social Media; what’s it for? Talking to your friends? Arguing with your enemies? Persuading other people that your view is right? Causing pain to those you hate? Surely it could be for so much more? Playground semantics rule the sites, Bullying so much more subtle, Gas lighting and manipulation common, Cliques form and break up,…

Staying Mum…

I'm nearly 20 weeks pregnant at the moment and nothing feels like it's happening the way it should. It's not as if I haven't been here before - after all I have NOS, PT and PW - but with them, the pregnancies progressed in the same way that the books tell me they should. I'm…